Lazarus waves crash over the rocks
Echoing a faint heartbeat giving new life,
New futures, to a thumping outcrop untouched
By any but the hand of corrosion.
Cells divide and push out copies,
Upon copies,
Upon copies,
Until something resembling life
Breaches forth with a glimmer of hope
Bestowed upon a shy gray world
In to arms of both the strong and the gentle.
Rebuilding in palpitating rhythms,
The jagged shore quakes,
The ocean froths up a soothing mist
That lays down gently a prismatic embrace
Of true love and cautious optimism.
Dear lava wells forth and down the twisted edifice
Smoothing out the twisted scars,
To leave a
Angels on the sidelines - Pt 6 by kindred, literature
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Angels on the sidelines - Pt 6
The next day, Ethan woke up with a full bottle of Jack Daniels staring at him, and a pack of cigarettes, missing only one filter tip, laying on it's side on the night stand. He remembered how much he wanted to get drunk and let it wash over him, and how much he wanted the nicotine to suppress his nerves and slow his heart rate.
None of that happened though. Ethan took a couple of drags from a cigarette, but it had been so long since he had, that they tasted, he thought, like baby shit. No longer did they just taste like a smoke. With that came the nausea brought on by the sudden amount of nicotine in his system. The need to empty his s
Angels on the sidelines - 4-5 by kindred, literature
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Angels on the sidelines - 4-5
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The morning's events left him completely unsure as to where he should be at this given moment. In the back of his mind, he was flaring because of what Morgan had managed to, again, bring in to his life. But a more rational side kicked in that said he needed to help this lady in distress. As white-knight as that was, it was why Ethan became a cop in the first place. He knew that it was engrained in him, deeply. There was not a lot that he could do about that, and the fight against it would be a losing battle.
Ethan also knew that, if his assumption was correct, scaring this guy was not going to do anything to him. Whatever had his
Angels on the sidelines - Pt 3 by kindred, literature
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Angels on the sidelines - Pt 3
To Ethan, the story was simple and not at all surprising. Not even the fact that Morgan had told Jenny to contact him was surprising, when Ethan put some thought into it. After she left, he began to see how much of a predator she really was. She consumed what she wanted, and whatever was left was expected to survive on its own. After she stepped out on him, on those late nights were depression took over and gave him a tour through the macabre, he began to wonder how many others were left so broken and empty before him. Whether she did it on purpose or not, she did it with a skill, and she certainly did not seem like an amateur at breakin
Angels on the sidelines - Pt 2 by kindred, literature
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Angels on the sidelines - Pt 2
Ethan's phone was sitting in his cup holder, buried in the loose change he had been collecting and forgetting to use at parking meters and drive-thru restaurants. Sitting amongst the change like a monolith, it began to vibrate and shimmy itself deeper amidst the coinage. Ethan picked it up on the third revolution of his "chirping birds" ring tone.
"What," he said sharply, knowing without looking who it was.
"Dude, why did you leave?" Dakotah seemed to be acting as innocent as his sophomore drama teachings would allow him. The G.I. bill was helping him come to a second career realization. One, Ethan thought, was probably just a flash
Twelve hours ago, Ethan wouldn't have cared about the guy sprawled across a couch in the middle class apartment that Ethan was now sitting outside of. The guy was a problem, but he was someone else's. Not supposed to be his. His best friend and Brother In Arms, Dakotah, so named for his mother's affection for their Indian heritage and her partially hippie upbringing, had tried to trick Ethan in to spending some time with him and his quirky-yet-entertaining girlfriend, Clover. It was a lazy Sunday afternoon, so they thought a day of watching bad Japanese animation and commenting on America's growing political problems would be a good way
I wonder if the cows know
You could describe its decadence as
Cold silk, or even, creamy velvet.
And with a sense of anticipation
It passes between my lips.
Unfolding upon my tongue
With a loving, sugary exhuberance.
I can pick up the scent of vanilla beans
Embedded in the off-white richness
Rushing through my nose, mingling with
The picture in my mind and launching them forth
A delicious visual cascade, with deep,
Creamy, satisfying hues!
If only those careless scoopers,
Those teenaged ice cream dredgers,
Would pass along the secret of the covenant they purvey,
More of us could begin understand this simple little fact:
ther
.
Glug, Glug
My engine heartbeats
Breaking rhythm
Stirring flesh and blood
With steel and rubber.
Restored.
Accelerator jumps
And red lights laugh
As I blow by with a
Wave and a big broad
Smile.
Pony power.
Older men point.
Young girls grin.
Memories flood through The Guys.
Assumptions through the girls.
Winking and smiling.
Grinning and laughing.
I am the company to keep.
Cherry red.
Anachronistic, my pocket rings.
Dinner and
Kids and
Wife and
I have had my fun.
Enough is enough.
.
Her touch would sketch
Emotions in my mind
Embossed and one of a kind.
Artistic treasure.
Meant for my collection.
I didn't feel right when she was gone.
I held her high above the choking
Fumes, and let what light would shine,
Bathe her and cast a shadow down upon me.
I could hear her sing, and
Unfurled wings sprung forth
For the first time.
Angels came to whisper lovingly in
My ear. Breathy words, that felt
Like down to the touch, and encased
My vision in a melody kaleidoscope.
She turned the lens, over and over.
And I loved the way she laughed.
And I can't be lonesome any longer
Because I've forgotten how to survive
I hope you fucking choke
While I shove your hate
Back down your throat
Since I'm down with it
And your worthless lease is up
Cry and Whimper and Moan and Plead
But I'm not fucking listening to it
I begged you for help time and again
And I got your worthless sympathy
And a goddamn pat on the head
Fucking suck it in and like it
You deserve it as far as I care
Drag your feet with my time
My life on your line now
Careful when that thin idea snaps
I can only teach what not to be
But it'll be a quick lesson I fear
Not much will be left when I tear
This whole fucking place to ground
Ignorant brick by ignorant brick
You can run
The day was shitty. Such is the norm around here. Trees barely living and for some off reason, it seems that the people around here reflect that pretty well. Dreary people inhabit this burg. No love for anything and no reaction to what their own minds may be saying to them. I reflect all this, but I listen to that voice. It screams.
My room is dark with the white vinyl shades left drooping down. The faint tinge of old cigarettes seem sustained in every crevice, but since I'm no social butterfly, I don't much care. An old broken futon, a dingy yellow bed spread that I'm sure used to be white, a cheap leather chair listing to one side, a
What can start off so harm-less and innocent
Can so quickly turn into a macabre dance of emotion.
A joke meant to laugh at and gloat in humor
When turned on it side spells embarrassment and anger
Small words used off handedly
Become all to quickly forceful backhands
And while pride and self-esteem heal ever so slowly
Time can wither any sense of compassion
And I sit here all day and all night
Thinking about the touch of your soft skin
And how your cheeks color and warm as my fingers brush them
And those light eyes that may never see me again
Tearful apologies do no good when trust isn't in the air
And the glorious sadness builds
I plagiarize my show of strength off
Songs by Sarah and Maynard.
And if you don't understand
I would appreciate it if you would turn
Your blind eyes from my weak candle's flame.
I allow their music to speak to me in ways
That I can't speak to myself..
I'm confused and hopelessly expectant..
But I'm comfortable here,
Perched upon my watch tower,
Waiting for the armor to soften
Drumming fingers, while I
Feel the wash of desperate hopefulness
Batter my flanks and weaken my base.
And with crushing bar chords,
Screeching voices,
Anger driving melody,
Careening obscenely across my expanse,
I can feel that someone understands,
W
It's so close I can smell it now
Like that trail of perfume down a crowded hall
It grabs my head and yanks my attention
Refusing to let go until I pay it heed
The Lunar forces grab the wheel
Teasing my last remnants of logic
And I'm pushed back against my own walls
Supporting the house that sanity built
Glowing white craters eye me
As I'm sucked down by its sweet gravity
Bathed in feelings I don't really feel
And thoughts I never wanted to think
And so many hands outstretched
Screaming for me to grab them
Shredding throats yelling at me to feel them
Crying when they taste the salty quicksand I bathe in
I'm its passenger when
I look east and I see my future
Of all seeing eyes
So used to seeing nothing but darkness
Peeking through the prairies green
For ever and always I want to bring light to the darkness
And hold the candle in one hand
With her hand in the other
guiding her to where her life truly resides
To show her the way out of the caves she has lived in
Built by those that didn't know her worth
And too ignorant to see what she truly was
I see now the butterfly so recently cocooned
To see her smile is my present from
The all seeing angels for good deeds left unrecognized
And to hear her laugh
Shows me that hatred can never destroy true beauty.
we love like we sin, terrified and breathless.
we are tea-at-midnight girls, naming constellations
that don't exist after lost tourists we meet on the
street, reminding our freckle covered shoulders
that even beautiful things can be made ordinary.
we are broken fingers and half-closed eyelids and a
penchant for mischief. we are ribbon skin and frantic
desires and incandescent hope. we are a voice spilling
secrets to falling leaves diving after their arachnid brothers,
mimicking the millions before us who were
judged unfairly, unjustly but all too correctly.
we whisper promises to dandelions because they do not
know how to hold gru
I'm wearing my blue shirt. Today is Friday.
I didn't change out of my gi pants after gym. You know, to save time when jukido starts at six:thirty.
This morning, I felt bad. Really bad. Depressed bad. You know, familiar. Bad, the kind that makes you not care about anything.
Anyway, I felt.
On the way to school this morning, in the car, sitting behind Temple; his mom driving, I closed my eyes. If I had kept them open I would have started crying. The seatbelt around me screamed things that I did not want to hear. The world flashed me by. Sitting in the car behind Temple with his mom driving. I didn't open my eyes for forty-fiv
.
I could float endlessly in the
Shadows that pool near my feet.
Adjacent to the angels where
The rabbit hole has taken form.
I could free-fall through sulfuric updrafts
Slowed down by no more than friction
With eyes wide and thoughts ponderous
As to what bottom I should be hitting this time
Off of mountain-tops I could scream
Bellowing what air I could grasp and
Discharge. Echoing the revulsion of a
Hollowed out shell, bereft and adrift.
I could wall this all up inside and feed
Off of myself until my Inner Light fractures
Through my skin. The weakening ever-expanding
From the gnawing and clawing and fading.
I could sit at
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So much has happened.
I highly doubt that anyone reads this any longer, since my professional career has taken over much of my off time.
I actually wrote part of a book. I haven't finished it, but i'd like to.
With the job that i'm trying to get, it will leave me lots of free time to, maybe, finish it.
I am one of the top three candidates for a Head Chef position working at a refuge for abused, abandoned, and neglected children.
The hours are half what I work now (more than half really), and the pay is 4 times as much.
So, not only would I be able to actually do something good for mankind, but I could actually live comfortably as well
What.
The.
Fuck.
When did I start to want to have kids?
Is it the, for some reason, copious amounts of pregnant and child rearing people around me?
Is it one of those things where all of a sudden you start to really dig the things that the people around you are in to?
i'm 31 years old. My dad said that it happened for him around this time.
He said that I was the most planned child in the history of children being planned.
I mean...I don't even like kids. Well, i do, but i really don't enjoy them like others seem to. And yet, the other day I was hanging out with my niece (who is two, by the way) and having an awesome time. We built
Well, that's another Valentines Day under my belt.
Or, as my buddy at work, Alfonso, says, "Balentimes" day...lol. I love that guy.
There is this beautiful girl that I know. Today, she wore lipstick, and she normally doesn't. She colored her hair a dark mahogany, and when she smiles, she sets off fireworks. I'm unfamiliar with the feeling, but I wonder if someone who is that magnanimous in both personality and beauty knows it.
And that is why I write this today.
No, this is not a tale of me getting all hot and bothered over the chick. Beyond the fact that she has a husband and a daughter less than a year old (and still kept a killer
Happy Birthday, Kindred... It's been awhile since I was on your page. Or, no - I was here the other week or two ago but today is your birthday so I'm here to leave some words and hope for you, well wishes and Happy Birthdays... and so. Maybe I'll hear from you one day? It would be a nice day... xo Dae
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